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I'm surprised, too.
I'm going to Seaworld today.

Yesterday was my sister and my best friend's birthday. I'm a horrible person because I didn't call Cecilia on her birthday.

With her gone, I thought that as more time passed, I would feel less sad, but I was wrong. It seems that I am even sadder than I was a week ago. A large part of how I feel isn't because she left, but because of my own awesome insecurities. Yeah, I'm surprised as you, but I have them just like any other human.

Anyway, I feel like I hold people back. I hate it, and it makes me feel like the worst person in the world. I feel like I was the reason that Cecilia moved back from Utah last semester, and as much as she loves me, she secretly resented me for it.

So, I'm angry at myself for being so selfish, and it is hard for me to talk to Cecilia at all because I feel so ashamed of myself.

It's going to be a very busy week. On Thursday, I am going to get my feet looked at by Dr. Transfiguration; you read that right. That's her real name -- she is a new podiatrist at the place I usually go to.

Well, I have to go get ready for my exciting day.