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Top 10 Moments in My Life
I really like writing every day. Makes me feel more productive. Anyhow, I only have four more left on my list, and they are all not going to be the easiest. Today, I'm going to list my top 10 moments in my life.

#1 -- My birth. Even though I don't remember it, I still feel like it's important enough to list because if it didn't happen, I wouldn't be writing this now, and none of the other moments would have happened either, so it's kind of a pivotal and important moment. Plus, I'm super grateful for that moment, because I know it wasn't easy on my mom, but I'm glad that she had me.

#2 -- My fourth birthday party. This is actually the reason why I love my birthday so much. It was the first birthday I had that I actually remember. Plus, my parents made me believe that the entire day was for me, and it made me feel important and loved. They also furthered the mystery and surprise of my birthday by locking all my presents inside my room, and then they wouldn't let me go into my room the entire day until it was time to open my presents. None of them were wrapped, but I just remember being so in awe, being able to see all of them at the same time and it was awesome.

#3 -- The first day of first grade. I managed to convince my teacher, Mr. Hatleli, that my knees were incapable of bending. The entire day I walked straight legged, and he even gave me a chair to rest my legs on in class. I didn't let up the ruse for the entire day. And I was six. He didn't know that my legs could bend until he called my mom later that night asking about my "condition." I think it's awesome that I had the dedication to keep up a trick like that without forgetting when I was only six years old. You don't see that kind of thing happening with kids these days.

#4 -- The day in third grade when they told me I needed to be put in honors classes. It made me feel special and smart. I didn't know at that time that my third grade teacher actually thought I was mentally retarded, but that's essentially the reason why I got put into the classes. She told my parents, and my parents were like, "you crazy," and then they had me tested by the school psychologist. When they found out how high my IQ was, they moved me into honors reading and math.

#5 -- The last day of middle school. Middle school was rough. But, elementary school had also been really hard on me. When I graduated middle school, I knew that we were moving to a new town where I could start over fresh. I knew that I wouldn't have to see any of those people ever again. I knew that I didn't have to be boxed in any more, and I could be myself and finally make friends, which is exactly what happened.

#6 -- Falling in love for the first time. I was 16 years old. When you fall in love for the first time, you don't have any guards, at least I didn't. You simply don't know how much it will hurt when the relationship (almost inevitably) ends, so you put all of you into it, and I don't think you can do that ever again. Anyhow, the good part was incredibly good. Only time in my life I ever had a flying dream.

#7 -- High school graduation. I was just happy to be moving on. I mean, for the most part, I really loved high school. I did! However, about halfway through senior year, the school that I had loved so devotedly for 3 1/2 years became more of a prison than anything else. That day, after I got my diploma, I would be free. It was such a relief.

#8 -- The day I was paralyzed. The day of my accident, I went cliff jumping with my friends. To get to the place where we jumped, we had to hike along a river bed, and I remember leaping and jumping from rock to rock, and I just had this moment of sheer gratitude, where I was so happy that I could use my legs and have the freedom to do what I wanted. I distinctly remember thinking I wouldn't be able to do that if I were in a wheelchair. It was a beautiful moment. Of course, the rest of the day kind of sucked, but that moment will always make me happy, thinking on it.

#9 -- Getting my patriarchal blessing. I was nearly 21. For those unfamiliar with the term, it is essentially a personalized blessing given by someone who we believe has authority to tell us more about our lives. I liked that moment because my parents were with me, and it was a beautiful blessing.

#10 -- Random moment at church. This moment happened maybe two or three weeks ago. I just remember being in the chapel at my church on Sunday, and feeling this beautiful sensation of peace. For the whole previous month of November, I had been having a really rough time. I was feeling like I wasn't going to be able to reach my full potential as a human because I wasn't sure if I was ever going to get married and have a family. It was torturing me. However, in that random moment at church, I felt like I knew that God knew my heart, and he knew my desires, and that I didn't have to worry about it anymore. I know I'm going to be a mom someday, and it's okay even if it's not in this life. I felt love and peace and reassurance.

Below you will see a picture of me on my fourth birthday, which was one of the best days of my life.

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