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My grandpa's funeral
California
theamyrlin
I'm back from my trip to Utah. It was a good trip. I will definitely be missing my grandpa. I was okay for a very long time, until we saw him in the funeral home for the viewing. I couldn't look at him without crying, because there he was -- not alive. It was too real for me. Even at the funeral when we had another viewing beforehand, and I tried to get a little closer, but it just made me tear up, and I could not not cry. Also, this version of events completely conflicted with my dream I had (actual sleeping dream) of the funeral in which he wasn't dead, but we went through with the funeral anyways since we'd already made so much preparation. At the cemetery, it felt weird to leave my grandpa behind in the casket, especially because it was raining. (And I thought those rainy funeral things were like movie cliché that never happen in real life.)

I can't believe how strong my grandma was about the entire thing. I don't even think I saw her cry once, and I was practically bawling during the funeral service during my mom's, my cousin's and my aunt's talks. I said some stuff during the funeral luncheon about my grandpa, and I totally cried. My grandpa was awesome, and hearing about how awesome he was at the funeral just made me miss him so much more. Plus, when I stayed at my grandma's house, I was sleeping in my grandpa's study, which really isn't his study anymore, but it felt weird. I know that he is in a better place, but I want him to be here!

Anyhow, it was really sad. I should be happy, though, because my grandpa lived a good, long life. He was a man of integrity, and a good example to everyone around him. If I can live my life that way, I know that I will make a good difference to this world.
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I'm so sorry for your loss, Kim. But you are right, he definately lived a long life and I know with your family he was probably very loved and happy! Sending good joo joo your way!

your grandpa was awesome... I didn't get to meet him that much, but he was really nice to me, and seeing the old photos of him, shows that he had a great long life, with tons of sweet adventures... mad respect, kim!

It's never easy, but I don't know that it should be easy.

It took a long time for it to really sink in with me that my mom was actually gone. I still occasionally think that I want to call her and tell her something and then realize that just isn't quite possible.

We didn't have a chance to talk today. I trust you are holding up well?

From Steph Thune

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I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. My grandfather Jennett died on April 14th. He went very peacefully. I was there when he left this world which is fitting since he was there when I came into it.

I hope your family is doing all right. Travis and I love you guys!

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